Breastfeeding was so emotional

I was so excited when I found out I was pregnant. I wanted to do everything naturally. Like the way it's been for centuries. After giving birth right away I was given my baby. The nurses suggested I should start nursing as soon as possible. My milk didn't come in yet it was just the pre-milk that was yellow. It was really difficult for me to hold my baby in the right position where I and her felt comfortable. It was a rough two nights in the hospital my baby couldn't latch on correctly it was that she was only six pounds and I was huge.She felt so small I couldn't hold her the right way. I tried all positions but it just wasnt comfortable. I didn't wanna give up I really wanted to breast feed. After I went back home my milk came in it was the most uncomfortable experience my breast look so swollen and hard like I had implants my boyfriend enjoyed that part. But my breasts leaked so much i would soak through my milk pads and shirt. I was scared to go out in public for a while. I didn't want to have an accident. Honestly for the fist week I pumped my milk. It was just so hard she'd cry I'd get upset and I felt I was a bad parent. My back had the worst pain I couldnt even hold her. When I tried breast feeding after that week of pumping it was no easier. my milk would squirt in her face. I had so much milk she'd choke because my let down was alot. After the month went by I started to have progress. The only way I was able to feed her was by laying down. My back still was hurting so bad it was the most comfortable way for both of us. It really made me feel more connected with my baby. I would get emotional sometimes just watching her feed. I think all mothers should breastfeed their babies. My baby is 7 months now. I stopped breast feeding when she was 6 months. I had to work and my milk was so much that one day in work I ran out of pads and was humiliated because my boss who is a man looked at my chest and i had two big wet spots. I really wanted to keep breast feeding but I was always on my feet at work and only could pump one time at work and I would be so engorge and I would always leak through. Breastfeeding is the best experience a mother can go through. It makes me sad that I stopped breastfeeding. I wish I was pregnant again.