Second times a charm,I hope

After 4 years of trying, my husband and I got pregnant. I was looking forward to bringing our little angel to the world. I wanted to provide her with all the best I could, breastfeeding being high on my list. Well, after 36 hours of labor and a fever at pushing time, our little girl came to the world, also with a fever and low glucose level. I had to feed her right away, we're talking within 20 minutes after birth. I brought her up to my breast and was saddened when she made a face like she was going to vomit. The nurses tried to help me as well and she just would latch. So I broke down and bottle fed her. I was so disappointed in myself. The next day a lactation consultant came in and tried to help me as well. We even tried using a nipple shield. My little girl never latched on. Too much work to get the milk is my guess :). Anyway, I pumped milk 8 times a day until my supply depleted. Unfortunately it was only for 3 months. I felt disappointed in myself and also felt I let my daughter down. I also felt like I was a bad mom. She is now 2.5 years old and the 3 months of my milk resulted in no ear infections for her. So I guess I did something right.

Last fall, we got the wonderful news that we were expecting again! This time it's a boy. I am bound and determined to breastfeed this one exclusively. I am excited and hope this one will be a little easier. Our son deserves the best we can provide. Just like we did with our princess. I also look forward to having an embarrassing story to share in the future as well!